fuuyoh...i don't know why but i take more n more period of time to finish my portraits....like this week's portraits...i took days to finish all 3...gai la...thankfully this week we don't have much assignments...but still...arrrghh~ what can i do actually...i really need to improve myself ASAP weii!!i felt that my drawing skills have been decreasing...it's like improving improving then STOPPED...it stopped at that standard then it starts decreasing....it sorta pissed me off sometimes...got all frustrated with myself...why is that kind of feeling coming back again???im serious tired of it...sick of it...i don't what is the cause of all this....why is it making me so moodless...please ....i really want to get rid of that feeling out of my mind...it's annoying...then it started to have voices in my head...trying to tell me what to do....sometimes i might thought i've gotten insane or something..... that's why i love going college...my classmates really got me cheered up...by their crazy acts...haha...they thought im always that happy....happy-go-lucky....i wished i could always be that way....but what is really behind that every smile and laughter....at times i couldnt even sleep at night....i wonder if i have gotten myself an insomnia....i want to push them aside....i really do...why cant i do it....
i'm always looking forward for college periods....cause i know when they are around me...i could leave those problems that lingers in my head aside....ALL of them... seriously...i want to tell you ....whenever i looked at you around...the smiles on your face really gives those giggles and tickles to me...i could talked to you in chats and others...but i couldnt really talk to you in person??i really feel different...that im not alone...i am trying not to tell you but i want to...oh well... if it's you and me forever...if its you and me right now..that'd be alright...be alright....we are chasing stars to lose our shadow..Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine ...won't you fly with me?? it's late already...i think i better get some sleeps....if not my panda eye would get worse n worse.....nights peeps...=)
